Sep 18, 2010

therapy

I've been tagged by the fabulous Erimentha to do Cassie's Therapy Tag! It's from a show called Skins, and it's a therapy video from one of the characters named Cassie. You can watch HER therapy video here.
I like doing this. It's like cleaning out my closet.

The task is: fill in 12 likes, 1 love and 8 hates like Cassie in her therapy video. Below, the bolded things are what you MUST include. Also, please make sure you link it back to me, and link it onto 3 other blogs you admire!

Abracadabra, Wow!
I like boys with well worn hoodys and girls who don't wear any makeup.
I like the feeling you get when you write something beautiful
I like poetry. a lot.
I like boys who write poetry a lot more
I like when the weather isn't too hot or too cold, but just perfect
I like a job well done
I like when everything falls into place again
I like the calm after the storm
I like british accents
I like good books
I like perfect hair days
I like getting things off my chest
I love the start of a new school year
Today I woke up and couldn't remember the dream I had
In some ways, I love everything.
Its less, its less of a thing to like, its less distinct, its less particular
I like things that I like but I love everything
There’s more choice in like
Cos even the worst things have things you love in them
I don’t know what you mean about things I hate

I hate not being able to choose. I hate that I have to choose at all
I hate not knowing
I hate missing so many people and not being able to do anything about it
I hate that we promised we'd keep in touch, but we haven't
I hate that things will never be THAT way again. I hate that everything's different
I hate people who are spoilt and don't realize how good they have it
I hate that I'm not strong enough, I hate that I'm not as strong as I thought I was
I hate you for disappointing me. I hate that you don't care enough to change.
I hate that's it's raining outside. all. the. time.
I hate this, wow. . .Sorry.

be love<3

Sep 15, 2010

"just so you know shame is five fingered"


it's a memory that haunts me. it creeps up on me on sunny days. reminds me of the things i most want to forget. it's a reoccurring nightmare. it's a half healed bruise on a cheek, hot and hollow.
most of all it's lasting.
it lives in me. the worst part of you has become the worst part of me.
it clings to me like fabric clings to wet skin, slick and unforgiving.
unforgiving.unforgiving.unforgiving.

a secret that lives in the back of my mind like a caged beast. it rears it's ugly head when i least expect it. please leave me alone, i don't want to remember.

i would give you the world if you could help me forget.
please. whisper new memories into my blood.

Sep 4, 2010

it's a new year

It's a new year. Well, not technically, but if you're under the age of 25 than you know what I mean because our lives revolve around the school year. Sadly.
And every new year practically REQUIRES a list of resolutions. A list of ways you will better your life. A list that will gather dust under your bed change your life. So here are my resolutions. Here are the things that I will do this coming year, the code that I will live by! Hurrah! I challenge you, as a self declared life coach (what?! it is all about speaking with conviction. trust me.), to make your very own new years list. It'll change your life. It can change your life. If you let it, that is. So, without further ado...

1) I will eat healthy. I realize that I have been saying this forever, but this time I actually mean it. My body is a temple, my body is a temple, my body is a temple... this mantra is to be repeated 50 times before bed.

2) I will do all my homework. I'm an expert slacker, but I've managed to get by unscathed. My luck is due to run out soon.

3) I will be organized. I will realize that my floor does not serve as additional closet space, and I really am sick and tired of waking up an hour early just to find my phone.

4) I will get to know more hot guys people. Hot guys people hot guys people can be amazing, if you give them a chance. This is why I will view everyone I meet as a potential boyfriend. Friend. Friend. If they happen to be boys? I don't discriminate. I am an equal opportunity befriender.

5) I will write. Because I have things to say and a captivated fan base that deserves it stories to tell and pictures to paint. Metaphorical pictures, that is. Unless I'm on the receiving end of a camera.

6) I will get over my obsession with Chuck Bass. Oh, who am I kidding. Our relationship (okay, I realize that is a bit of a stretch) is well documented. Case in point.

7) I will save money. I will, I will, I will. I am a fan of nice, expensive shoes that I cannot afford. I would like to be able to afford them.

8) I will follow this list. I will let it change my life. This took a substantial amount of time, and I will NOT let it go to waste.

Change is in the air! Challenge yourselves, push the edge a bit. As Dr. Seuss said, You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself, any direction you choose. Truer words have never been spoken.

be love <3

jamila

Sep 1, 2010

if you are going to love, love completely. anything worth doing is worth doing well


love the love that is so heavy it holds you down like a lifeline, like a paperweight.

love the love that is so fierce it causes a thousand brand new suns to rise and set inside you.

love the love that is so bright it's blinding.

love the love that's so much like home you can see your history in its eyes.

love the love that is love in love. the love that makes the angels in your gut spin in spirals. the love that brings you closer to god and heaven. the love that took you in its hand and shaped you.

love the love that is hard and unyielding as the earth.

love that is flawed. love the love that is forever.


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this is inspired by Rachel McKibbens' poem last love which you can (and should!) read here

be love.