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hello

i've missed you.

i thought i was strong, but the world has swallowed me whole, but it didn't take me without a fight.

i kicked and scratched, and i am still sucker punching the world in the face, in the hopes that it will loosen its grip on me. but the world is not daft, and refuses to let go of what it has fought, is still fighting, so valiantly for.

i'm still fighting, so you keep fighting.

don't give in.

if we fight hard enough, than maybe we'll win.

i can't be the only one

“We sometimes encounter people, even perfect strangers, who begin to interest us at first sight, somehow suddenly, all at once, before a word has been spoken.”

Fydor Dostoevsky

1) Who signs up for the email list of every cause I support (or want to support) and never opens the ten billion emails they send

2) Who realizes she is walking the wrong way in a public setting, and then keeps walking the wrong way because to turn around would make her look like an idiot

3) Promises to do her homework in the morning no matter what, and then decides not to (even though she knew she wouldn't)

4) Who gets writers lust. I can't be the only one who reads a piece of writing that is so amazing it makes me wish with all my heart that I had written it.

5) Who knows she shouldn't say something out loud, but says it anyway

6) Who has a "Things to Google" list

7)Who nods her head intelligently in class, even when I have no idea what people are talking about

8) Who looks up shoes online that I won't be able to afford anytime soon. Case in point.

9) Who thinks everyone deserves to appreciate how funny I am, so if I make a joke the first time and no one laughs, I'll assume it's because they didn't hear me, so I'll repeat it. It's not like I'll be able to hear if they laugh or not because I'll be laughing too hard

10) I can't be the only one who stays up all night, thinking about everything, mostly John Mayer and wondering what everyone else in the world does when they can't fall asleep, and the internet has gotten boring, and there are no more books to read, and the last person you texted has fallen long asleep

This is J, and I approve this message

I'm baaaaack, and perfectly fabulous healthy!

Now, before I begin I would like to mention that I have NOT given up on my "No Complaining" resolution. I am only making an exception because you are my very favorite people in the world because you actually take the time to read what I write, which means my ego is nearing combustion I really appreciate. And because you all are so special, this one's for you :)

I am sick and tired of school. I know, I know it's the first week back after break, but I cannot handle this. I am tired all the time. When I'm in class all I can think about is how soon I can get back to my bed. That and whether or not I've set all my shows to record while I'm gone. It's a billion degrees colder than usual here and I'm surprised I haven't died from hypothermia. It's always raining, and thus my cute winter outfits are being RUINED by all the layers I have to wear. My teachers do not realize I have a life (fine, I don't, but you're the only one who knows that) and keep assigning me massive amounts of homework which I don't even do. There are no cute guys in any of my classes. My immune system has turned to shit. I'm suffering from severe shoe lust, and I have no money! And I have to decide what I'm going to do with the rest of my life now that my mother has told me that marrying a prince and becoming fabulously wealthy a princess is not an option.

Thank you for listening! I feel better already :D

the brink of death

right now goldfish and Theraflu are the only things keeping me alive.

i haven't written in a while, and i know you guys miss my fabulousness miss you guys, so here's a little something till i'm feeling better.

cheers!

Happy New Years!!!

Yes, I'm a day late, but I have a good reason. I was perfecting my New Year's Resolutions. So, without further ado:

1) Eat more fruits and vegetables (I'm getting old! My mother would say that 18 is hardly old, but if you want to live till you're 100 you have to plan early)

2) Stop gossiping (my friends have little faith in me. true this should say gossip less, but i am nothing if not ambitious)

3) Do more homework (4.0 this term say whaaaaa! I know I've been saying this since sixth grade, but I can practically taste it)

4) Read more books (good books keep souls pure and free from wickedness, trust me)

5) Complain less (This is going to be soooo hard to do! Nothing further

6) Workout every once in a while more ( I boxed on Wii sports yesterday and I almost had a heart attack. Not to mention the fact that my muscles are aching.)

7) Be nicer to my brothers and sisters (This will be hard, trust me. Sometimes I wonder if they're the Devil's long lost children)

that's all for now :) I'll let you know how it goes!

What are your resolutions?