Nov 28, 2010

betrayal

a betrayal is the worst kind of heartbreak there is.
it’s a knife in the back.
it’s a lie told through a smile.
it’s reaching out for a hand and coming back, palms empty.
it’s the cold realization that nothing is ever as it seems, and that we were never as we thought we were.

honesty is unflinching. it’s the greatest form of love there is. to be honest with someone is to say, i love you enough to tell you the truth. i love you more than my pride, more than my own self importance.

i’ve never been one to trust easily, never been one to collect friends on the cloak of my back. but eventually you realize that no one can go through life alone, and you pick your family, and you love them with a fierceness that births a thousand brand-new suns.

i would take anger over disappointment any day of the week. anger is a fire that breathes only temporarily. disappointment festers. it swims in veins and builds itself a home behind the ribcage.

i am disappointed. in this web that i’ve been caught up in. i want nothing to do with this- i never wanted anything to do with any of this. i only ever wanted anything to do with you.

sister-girls: all of you. it’s a shame you didn’t know me as well as i thought you did.

6 comments:

chambanachik said...

Breathtaking and perfect. And true.

Tsionah N said...

The ones who matter don't mind and those who mind don't matter... I identify with what you've said. and we need to hang out.

Camelgirl said...

this is so so so amazing.
you are incredibly talented; please tell me you DO something involving writing.
I can so relate to this.
xx

Erimentha said...

you have something different to all the other bloggers. i feel like your words mean more, and me and sanchez both agree your blog is the best.
much love,
eri xxx
ps. isn't it cool me and sanchezzy are friends? haha bet your jealous! ;) :P

Melanie♥♥♥ said...

I love this post, and I agree.
-Melanie

jamila said...

tsionah- thank you. i really needed to hear that.

eri- ha, very jealous! but we can form a lovely online friendship :)