“She likes being around other people; she just isn’t particularly comfortable talking to them. She supposes that she is some variety of voyeur, enjoying the spectacle, breathing in the atmosphere, while experiencing uneasiness when asked to become part of it. None of this makes her unhappy. The life of a wallflower, she often thinks, is not such a terrible life."
- Whitney Otto, A Collection of Beauties at the Height of Their Popularity: A Novel
this is so me.